I’ve been having a hard time recently. This work schedule is drilling me. I barely have time to do much else except eat, sleep, and work and every minute extra I have, I rush to briefly visit my nephew and/or niece. But when I was in school, I couldn’t wait to start working. And now I’m working, I can’t wait to find another job with a much saner work schedule.
Let me back-track a bit….
When I was in high school, I couldn’t wait to finish and be a college girl. Then when I started college, I was excited for all of 5 minutes before I couldn’t wait to graduate and start law school. So I expedited my major so much so that I was done with all my requirements by my third year. I couldn’t possibly graduate college at 18 so I picked up a second major, hurried that one up just so I could spend no minute more than 4 years in college and start law school. This past weekend, it was Homecoming at my almamater and I attended my first class reunion. Not only did I feel old, I really miss it. All I had to do was pass my classes. Life was so much simpler back then. That was THE life but I bet you current college students like my baby sister don’t believe me. And from experience, I don’t expect them to. Well, until they graduate and enter the real world.
So yea after college, everyone told me to take a year off, and maybe travel; after all I graduated college at 20 years old. But no! I couldn’t wait! So I hurriedly entered law school. I complained all through law school. I couldn’t wait to graduate and take the bar. Then I graduated and couldn’t wait to take the bar. Then I took the bar, and I could hardly wait for the result to come out. Then I passed. Then I couldn’t wait to get a Master’s. After the first semester of that, I got bored but I trucked through it anyway just to get a job. Now I have a job, I’m stressed because I hardly have any time and I’m back to square one- looking for something else.
I know I’ve been babbling a bit but I’m trying to make a point…..one I hope you’re getting by now. As human beings, we are hardly satisfied with where we are in life. We are in such a hurry to get to the next stage, we forget to savor where we are. We all couldn’t wait to grow up only to grow up and find out that growing up really sucks…..those who are single can’t wait to get married, those who are married miss the freedom of the single life, those who don’t have kids can’t wait to have little ones and those who have kids wonder when they’ll get to be selfish again. I’d like to say this is the circle of life. But I’m not sure its a good circle to be in.
Yesterday, I realized I’d been whining a lot about this job. When I have to wake up early, I complain that I need at least one more hour of sleep, forgetting that the fact that I woke up at all is a blessing. When I’m in traffic, I curse that I have to be sitting in one place for long periods of time when I could be sleeping, forgetting that I should be thankful that I have a car and a job to go to. When I have extra work that seems to be a challenge, I’m furious at the responsibility, forgetting that the fact that I’m given a challenge is an opportunity to grow and it means someone believes in my capability.
So, I decided to stop whining about how my job doesn’t afford me any time and savor the good parts. So, I made a list of the good things about the job. To start with, there’s monetary security….I’m learning and I’m networking. Until I get a job with a better schedule, I have to try to appreciate where I am and what it offers me. I’ve realized there’s nothing like the perfect life…but the good life is always in front me. I am choosing to see it and appreciate it. I’m choosing my “now”.
I’m just wondering…do you feel the same way? Like you’re so focused on the future, you loose sight of the “now”? If you do, you’re not alone. Do this with me- think about the good things about where you are in life today….pick out the good stuff about it and focus on it….start with the fact that you’re alive and healthy…That alone is a privilege. Do this and I bet you, it’ll make your day better 🙂